a month of gratitude - fourteen

i'm grateful for friends that reach out to check in and for therapy.

i feel like i've been in a deep hole since august. every time i think i've dug myself out, i realize i'm still there. today i felt it. really felt it. and it was overwhelming.

and i posted a little about it on instagram and a friend sent a short, quick email just letting me know she was there. and that was amazing.

and then i went to therapy and it was 50min of emotion and frustration and tears that wanted to fall but didn't. and at the end, i felt myself go "that's it?! i get no answers??". and of course that's not how it works. but voicing it is a start. even if i have to voice it over and over again.