today for december reflections the prompt is favorite photo of the year.
i went through my photos, favoriting one and then another.
and in the end, i went through them and realized that i had two different categories of favorite photo: favorite photo because it captured a beloved moment or favorite photo because it captured something beautiful in the world.
not all of my beloved moment photos are pretty. sometimes i am making a weird face or it isn't in focus or it isn't even that interesting to look at, but it represents something lovely. while a lot of my something beautiful in the world photos are very pretty, but are ultimately kind of generic.
i realized that the vast majority of my favorite photos that captured something beautiful in the world were my favorites not because i particularly loved them...instead, i thought others may think they are good pictures. that they are pretty. i usually had taken another picture, taken in the same place of almost the same thing, that was my actual favorite.
for example, i love the water and almost every photo i took of a beach, a lake, an ocean, etc is in my favorites (see above), but it is the picture with my friend and i as we walked along the beach, the one that doesn't quite capture the beauty around us in the same way but captures two friends enjoying the world at a time when we needed it most, that actually hits that favorite spot. the real favorite spot. (i was about to write a whole thing about how the above picture actually isn't a favorite...but then i realized that it is, but i don't think its a good picture...so maybe these two categories aren't as clearly defined as i thought...or maybe i just think water is pretty and makes up for shoddy photo skills...? or something? i don't know. just pretend i am making my point still.)
my real favorite photos i often find flaws in. i think my face looks fat or i wish my finger didn't accidentally block some of the camera or the angle isn't the best or my eye is drawn to something that i think distracts from the picture as a whole or i am worried a friend of mine wouldn't like how they looked in the picture. a lot of my favorite photos haven't been shared on social media for these reasons. because they don't show us or something at its "best"...even though, of course, it is showing just that. because it is showing it/us at our most natural, at our most meaningful, most...
it is capturing a favorite moment, something that yearns to be remembered...something specific to us in this world, us with our quirks and inconsistencies and issues and puffy cheeks.
in the end, both categories of favorites highlight moments, situations, instances that captured something lovely about this year. i hemmed and hawed about which one to choose (as much as someone can hem and haw about something that ultimately doesn't matter) and i landed on one that kinda sorta falls into both in my sappy way of thinking--> among other things, a moment that yearns to be remembered and me...wearing a dress that, in my opinion, is as beautiful as a good sunset so...win-win.
but it was nice to remember some favorite moments from this year. it was nice to see that many of them had been, at least somewhat, documented.