if you know me, you know i can be terrible at making some decisions. but then i can be really good at making other decisions.
so...here are some good decisions i made this year:
*yelling at my dad the friday before the election about how his planning not to vote would affect me and why i thought it was important for him to vote for hillary. i got a text on election day saying he went out and voted for hillary.
*reading a lot more poetry. it is always a good decision.
*adding blonde highlights to my hair. because i was too chicken to do it before.
*being honest about how i was feeling post election. because even though i think i may have pushed some people away, i was honest about what was bothering me. and i have a bad history of trying to hide what i am actually feeling.
*throwing myself a 30th birthday party with the help of my friend maya. everyone should celebrate their birthdays in my book. after a crummy end to 29, i wanted to start 30 off with a lot of love and celebration. and that is what i got and it was a lovely decision.
*inviting my friend jahna to go to hamilton with me. because being the only two black people in our section was...interesting...and because spending time with her is always a good idea.
*spending a week with the 52nd st project again. i've been lucky to participate in their one-on-ones the last two summers and they are always a good idea. work with kids. go to the beach. relax with other artists at night. lovely.
*insisting on a christmas tree. it is so pretttyyyyy.
*going to meditation classes. they were great and added some much needed calm to the first part of this year. i should go back. i should get my butt on the cushion again.
*deciding to stick with two weird characters in some random pages i wrote in the spring. now they are in a new play...a much better play. actually, this has happened twice this year. so...it is good decision to let the characters i write find the plays they need to be in clearly.
*going to my friend's wedding in march. i didn't think i could swing it but i did. and it was great to see her after so much time apart.
*buying this yellow dress for my friend's wedding in april was really probably the best decision of the year.
*but really though, the best decision of this year was not ignoring an email i got from okcupid alerting me to the fact that this guy had written me. after a number of meh dates, ghosting guys, and messages that literally started out with "ROOOOAAARRRRRR!", i wasn't in the mood to keep trying. i barely looked at okcupid but i still got their emails...which i usually just deleted. but i noticed this person had written me in complete sentences. he was asking about my work as a playwright.
i read the message a few times and looked over this person's profile. he mentioned leslie knope and parks & rec. i should add that a good decision of mine this year was to watch all of parks & rec in january. he seemed like a nice guy, but i wasn't sure. after all, a lot of guys seem nice. also, i had promised myself that if i didn't find myself a boyfriend by the summer, i was just going to get another dog and at that point, i had pretty much committed to the dog.
i was excited about the dog.
but i wrote back anyway because something said you never know.
that was a good decision.
because i didn't know.
also because getting another dog would have been a disaster. let's be honest. george the pup is not big on new people or new dogs...but at least the new people can be manipulated into giving him food. and i love the bf and think i love him more than i would have loved the dog, you know?
anyway, yeah, writing him back and going on a date with him and then going on another date and then another...all really good decisions that led to other really good decisions...like walking across the brooklyn bridge for the first time and hiking in the catskills for the first time and watching parks & rec again and letting this person in and, you know, falling in love and feeling all the sappy things...all good decisions...and i know these decisions will lead to future good, but probably even better, decisions.
so good decision there, charly. pat yourself on the back for that one. you should probably pat him on the back for making the decision to write you in the first place. that would also be a good decision.