It has become clear lately that I am holding onto some pretty sad and frustrating beliefs about myself. Things that aren’t true but that I’ve absorbed/allowed/concluded based on life experiences. In a therapy appointment today and in a bodywork appointment yesterday, both therapists basically said to me: “our work together will be figuring out what you really need and want”. I literally groaned when they each said this. The five year old in me was like “whhhyyy?!?!” Clearly I resist taking my needs and wants seriously. It has always felt more comfortable to worry about satisfying others rather than myself. But...I’m no longer interested in ignoring myself. I’m interested in figuring out and really working toward this self-love thing so that I’m living the life I want to be living. So. This Valentine’s Day I’m focusing on feeling that love for myself and putting in the work to uncover what is holding that love back so it can spring forth like my love for others.
Happy love day, y’all.