wanting - an unfinished list

i've been wanting to paint lately. like get some canvas and pull out some paints and get dirty while trying to capture something words cannot.

i've also been wanting to write a novel lately. 

and write poems.

basically anything but a play. (avoidance much?)

and i've wanted to read book of poems after book of poems.

and to take photos that capture the beauty in my every day.

i've been wanting to reconnect to yoga and meditation, things that have dwindled in my life this past year.

and i've been wanting to stop eating as much dairy and carbs as i have these last few months.

i've been wanting to sit among the trees and just stare and listen.

i've been wanting to lay in bed longer.

i've been wanting to hide in museums.

and i've been wanting to avoid familiar haunts.

i've been wanting to go on a road trip.

i've been wanting to listen more than i talk.

i've been wanting to end each night with a glass of wine.

i've been wanting to have less coffee.

i've been wanting to wear all black.

i've been wanting to take naps.

and crossword puzzles. i've wanted to do those.

and to run without music.

lately i've had the urge to go out dancing and to have a little too much to drink.

and to make lists on paper so i can have the satisfaction of crossing items off. 

and to buy books i don't have time to read.

and to both obsess about the election and yet not talk about it.

to daydream.

i've been wanting to stay in the moment.

lately i've really just wanted chocolate chip cookies.